If it seems I am calm, distant or, aloof, it’s not because I’m dejected, if not depressed, it is because I am disappointed, dissatisfied—despondent, in that my attitude, behavior or, countenance demeanor is, as it may seem, demurred and, I may well be numb for exhaustion and, fatigue—from emotional unavailability, which is only as a result of an absence of equanimity, to an echumenical, egalitarian, mindfulness discipline I mean to practice, with each and every one of you, thank you… Individually.
As a result of having lived in extenuating circumstances, living within a familiar dynamic situation, maintaining silence is not meant to be used as a weapon, actions speak louder than words… And yet, silence is deafening, by default, it is only as a self defense mechanism to keep from shutting down completely living without creature comforts coping under duress, pressure and stress… it can be as, like, a detriment to your health, wealth and general well being, overall, you know? If that; make sense? I apologise for some delay in response. To reply in kind, I appreciate you, making time, for me too.
Thank you—history repeats itself—I don’t want to make the same mistakes… Again, as I have experienced in my past too, you see… Aho, namaste my friend, thanks again. For The Love,
~`.~Aries B.C. Damwell, FTL